HEED, MOVE!
Friday, September 7th, 2007
I am home sick today. My head is killing me and I feel like someone filled my head with some sort of snot insulation overnight. The good news is that if I had central AC or heating in my head, my utility bills would seriously go down now. The bad news is I feel like I’m going to topple over from the weight of my head. I’m not sure where this sickness is coming from. It could be from the depression – I haven’t said so here or to many others, but I’ve been really down lately.
It’s tough going from spending that weekend with Van and Viv to downshifting back into 5 minutes phone calls and iChats every night. Also, I got some scheduling emails about the mediation schedule and the whole ending things depresses the hell out of me. I know it shouldn’t. I know it’s inevitable, but it still sucks.
I got alot done yesterday : cut my lawn, scooped the dog poop, changed the cat box, vacuumed, swept, mopped, brushed Yogi, fixed the front door stop, replaced the dryer vent hose, fixed the OS Commerce menus on the curtain rods site, made Apache/PHP/MySQL all peacefull-like, did some work on the Active Directory import tool for the old employer, did a load of laundry, read two chapters of The Celestine Prophecy, and watched some of the Colts-Saints season opener.
Oops I nearly forgot the middle name meme Radioactivegirl tagged me with…
You must list one fact that is somehow relevant to your life for each letter of your middle name. If you don’t have a middle name, use the middle name you would have liked to have had. When you are tagged you need to write your own blog-post containing your own middle name game facts. At the end of your blog-post, you need to choose one person for each letter of your middle name to tag. Don’t forget to leave them a comment telling them they’re tagged, and to read your blog.
A - Alone. I live alone…really, really alone.
L - Learn. I love to teach my kids stuff. Bubs really enjoys when I let him help me and when I make it about teaching him something instead of just getting something done, it makes it less of a chore and I have a lot more patience with him and myself too. Viv amazes me with how quick she picks stuff up, makes me think I’m a good teacher some days.
A - Ambitious. Somehow I think I will be a good father even with the conditions being what they are. I think I will also get out from all of this debt and be a great provider for my children.
N – Numb. The immediacy of everything that has taken place has really dampened my want to do anything most days. I think people get upset with me that I don’t return phone calls or emails, but the truth is, I’m not real proud of myself any more. I’m more content to work at home and make sure that I’m making money to pay for all of what’s going on. I’ll get out and run or ride my bike, but going to bars or out anywhere just doesn’t feel good right now.
Wow, that was depressing…crap. But at least it’s honest. I’m supposed to tag people with those letters, so here goes – no pressure to complete it… Apertome, Lee, April, and N…I know no one with an N as their first name or online nick name…jeebus!!! I better get to work on knowing some N folk.
- Medford Lakes celebrates reopening of Aetna Way – this is the first time since the 2004 floods this shortcut was opened…I’m gonna have to take a bike ride to check it out this weekend.
- Rick Ankiel continues his storybook comeback…and then this. – man, what a bummer.
- LuLL Flowering Lamp
- What a Wonderful World – pretty impressive shadow puppetry.
I got some sleep last night, but I have woken up to a world of nerd problems that are not making me really super happy. The NitroVideo site has this really neat group of PERL scripts that build their pages, but a very unnormalized, cantankerous MySQL database that is making my life not awesome. At the day job a .NET/SQL promotion went sorta awry. After further inspection it turns out the data issue was there previously, but it never looks good on you the developer when you just did a promotion prior to the fuck up.
I had a near foot-in-mouth issue this morning. I thought I was being observant, but…well, let me step back a minute. In my master bedroom, the something to spray when someone drops a deuce is this body spray that sits in a little bath and body works basket on the potty. I’m very familiar with this scent. A co-worker walked by, I smelled that same scent…what followed was absolute brilliance and most likely an indicator that I am still not caught up on sleep.
